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Ever since I was a kid, I have always felt that I am different. While most people on Earth descended from Venus and Mars, I was sure I came from neither. Perhaps I was sent from Neptune. Or Uranus, maybe. Wherever I came from, it doesn't matter now.
Yes, I am gay. I have always known that I was born this way. As it was beginning to manifest during my childhood, my family made me aware that they don't want me to be gay. When I would unconsciously lift my pinkies every time I use my hands, a pinch or a hit will automatically come my way. Every time I would act a bit effeminate, they would go hysterical and scold me and threaten to put me in a sack and hang me.
Fortunately, those threats remained as they are but it was hurtful all the same. Growing up, I was always made to feel that my difference was a disgusting disease that must be cured. I was made to believe that my existence was a mistake that has to be corrected. The more they tried to fix me, the more I become broken.
With all those painful experiences, they had me realizing that the world is a stage where life is it's ongoing play and we are all part of the cast playing different characters. With the mounting pressure from my co-actors who kept telling me I had been playing my part all wrong, I was expected to give up my character. I didn't. Instead, I decided to be another actor. I have become one. Through time, I have learned to become different actors. Now my character is being played by different alters.
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